Monday, December 31, 2012

Liquid Latex (purple)

I was completely and utterly disappointed with our experience with Maximum Impact Liquid Latex. The container arrived dented. Though labelled as fluorescent purple, it was a dull skin tone purple. Caisee called it "strangled smurf".

Tuesday, December 25, 2012


Today was quite nice. I'm not a huge Christmas person, but my grandmother wanted the morning for family. After denying the old woman seeing her great-granddaughters because of our two years living on the opposite coast, I felt slightly obligated. 

Friday, December 21, 2012

No Christmas Tree

I do not have a Christmas tree. I do not think one will be put up because I have other priorities. That's life - being a grown up sucks ass!

Wednesday, December 12, 2012



A simple word isn't it?
It's uttered everyday to almost every person imaginable.

Who are your friends?
I used to think that friends were the people that you could laugh and talk to.

Tuesday, December 11, 2012

Feeling Low

All you see is the girl you once knew...

I've changed, I chose freedom, I decided to stop just looking out the window.

Monday, December 10, 2012


The past few weeks have been a whirlwind. A birthday each week and Christmas, its been having me run wild. If it wasnt for the fact of having a strict routine I dont think I would have been able to keep up on everything!

Sunday, December 9, 2012


I know in many ways I've stated that I don't believe in the christian god. That I don't believe that Jesus was anything more than a man but what I do believe in is Santa. No, not a jolly fat man in a red suit.

Think "Yes, Virginia there is a Santa Clause". I believe in the love that each person should have for his fellow man. I believe in the generosity when some one says "I'm cold!" some one steps up to the plate and says "be warm" and takes action to make that person warm. May it be them providing a coat or a blanket, buying a heater or fixing a broken one.

Saturday, December 8, 2012

Phone Sex

Phone sex can be fun whether you're enhacing a long distance relationship to call a 1-900 number (are phone sex lines still 1-900 numbers or am I just showing my age?).

I've dabbled in the phone sex world from boyfriends to complete strangers and I figured I'd give a few pointers to those who've never tried it. So call
your cell phone provider and up your minutes -- you better be prepared to be burning up some time this month.  Phone sex is good, clean dirty fun.

Thursday, December 6, 2012

EdenFantasys: Fetish Fantasy Series Wartenberg Wheel

If you read my blog about what a Wartenberg Wheel is, then you know that I purchased this toy from EdenFantasys approximately at the beginning of June. Yea, I know this review has been a LONG time coming but it’s mostly because I really didn't want to write a bad review for it but I'm stuck!

Sunday, December 2, 2012

Another Fun day With Stressful Undertones!

So I had a really awesome day today Smile I went shopping with one of my favorite friends. Then we went back to her apartment and enjoyed a blunt and some Ben & Jerry's while talking about the plan for how the next birthday party is going to work.

Friday, November 30, 2012

The more things change....

Isn't it strange how time flies and how things change but don't?

This time last year I was panicking... 40 weeks came far too fast and I was not ready to have a new baby "any day now" and while this year I'm not pregnant my youngest birthday snuck up on me again!

Thursday, November 29, 2012

Stress: School + Work

Stress is really starting to wear on me.
Its been a kind of difficult few weeks. I've tried to not let it distract me from school and work but I'm failing at that miserably. I've really gotta get my head on straight and get down on the hussle and focus! On the bright side Caisee has turned the tables on me and has been pushing me to shoot more now I just need to get shit together so that I can get some editing done.

Sunday, November 25, 2012

Your Pussy Is One Of A Kind!

Every girl is made up of an intricate network of nerves that is unique to her and her alone!  No two females are the same.

Saturday, November 10, 2012

Voyeur & Exhibitionist

A voyeur and an exhibitionist appear to be a match made in paraphilic heaven. One loves to watch, the other loves to be watched. You’d think this would make for beautiful music, but each person in the world has his own individual desires, turn-ons and limits, which can make it difficult to know where to draw the line when engaging in erotic desires. Often, consent plays an important role in whether people get turned on, turned off, angry, excited, or get in trouble with the law. For some, the idea of not having consent is what sexually arouses them, which can be a dangerous game to play.

Thursday, November 8, 2012

EdenFantasys: Waterproof Travel Kit

This month’s toy is the Waterproof Travel kit; first off this review is going to be slightly difficult since the Mini-Massager piece arrived defective (thankfully I had two others).

Sunday, October 28, 2012

Illi Real Life Update

School is in full swing, and the Holidays are coming up fast. This means being more busy for a while. I didnt do any partying this weekend due to a Code Milky Green (for you non-big bang fans, that means illness), which we are still in the middle of.... I've been so sick I havent even made a nose blowing video yet! If that doesnt tell you I'm sick then I dont know what will!

I thought about doing part of my tattoo the other day even though I techincally cant afford it with the other things I'm aiming to get done. Logic won out. I'm still trying to decide if I'm happy about it.

I'm also in the process of getting Caisee's store set up. I got her some lingerie and one of her fans got her a dinky little camera. Its not much to look at and has no bells or whistles but has HD and its a video camera so it'll definately help her get started. China and her are my winter projects along with my own personal goals. I'm hoping that it will be a very productive winter. I've got big plans for 2013 so keep your fingers crossed and remember you can always help by tipping the girls on their ExtraLunchMoney accounts (Caisee, China) or by sending me a tripbute on my store.

As always thank you for your support!

Wednesday, October 17, 2012

Old: Age or a Feeling?

Lately I've been really feeling my age, but I think that's because in the adult industry 25 is old. Whether or not you have children the classification of MILF is automatically slapped on you.

Sunday, October 14, 2012

Over Sexualized? Or For All Ages?

EdenFantasys asked: Are we over sexualizing a holiday that puts focus on children, or is Halloween for all ages?

Thursday, October 11, 2012

EdenFantasys: Sliquid Organics Natural (lube)

This month's EdenFantasys review is on Sliquid Organics Natural (lube).

I got the trial size, because let's face it. Unless you know something's going to be good why spend $10 when you could only spend $2?

Sunday, October 7, 2012



Causing a loss of self-respect; humiliating.

Thursday, October 4, 2012

Empowering? Or Degrading?

EdenFantasys asked: Are the sexy costumes empowering or degrading?

I've always found sexy costumes as powering but then again I believe that women had more power in the 1950s because they controlled everything behind the scenes. A true leader does not let you know that they are leading they silently pull the strings of the puppet that is out front (look at Bush and Cheney).

When it comes to Halloween costumes I find that the ones who call sexy Halloween costumes “degrading” are the ones who CAN'T wear them.

Monday, October 1, 2012

Friday, September 28, 2012


@pornlaw: Can anyone find a long term study of sex workers that show what, if any, harmful effects there are because of exposure to Nitrosamines?

Wednesday, September 26, 2012


Gah! I can’t get motivated to save my life. I had all these big plans for 2012 so that 2013 would be better than the last two. I’m so sick of the uncertainty my life has had over the last 3 years and I am determined to start making it better.


Right now things are on hold, and even just keeping up with has been a slight challenge. My car died. All of my camera guys got “real” jobs and so they’re barely ever around and the “professional” photographers out here are anything but…

Tuesday, September 25, 2012

Hand Jobs

I know many women don’t enjoy giving these and many more feel uncomfortable while doing it. So here are a few tips I have to make your experience and his, a little more enjoyable.

Thursday, September 20, 2012

EdenFantasys: H20 Jo (lube)

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Another sad lube review!

I bought this lube because it was water based. I have a lot of allergies to synthetic lubes so I figured this would be great. I desperately needed a lube in southern California, my own wasn't enough! Plus water based are safe for use with all toys thus with my line of work I need to find a good lube for multiple scenes.
This wasn't it.

H20 is very runny and has a thin consistency. It lives up to its name, its very watery. If you've used Pink but wanted something runnier then this is your lube! If you've never used Pink then think liquid laundry soap. Which for me is a downer, I like lubes to be a little bit thicker so that they dont run as easily and stay where I need it. While others may enjoy the easy to spread nature of this watery lube.

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I didn't have any problems massaging it into my pussy, but it becomes thicker and very tacky in seconds. Which is the only form of traction you're going to get with this lube. I’d compare it to how your pussy would feel after you masturbated with a lollipop. Not sensations I’d recommend.

When we tried it for sex I figured adding a bit more might be a solution. It didn't. Adding more was like throwing water on a grease fire. Seems like a good idea until a few seconds after you do it and that's when you realize you made matters worse!

This lube is full of flaws and yucks for me. I really can't say anything positive about this lube.
It’s too watery to start and to thick to finish.
It’s sticky and makes sex (or even a simple hand job) uncomfortable.
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Saturday, September 8, 2012


So, if you follow me on Twitter or Facebook you've seen the beautiful red head Chinara Dahl (we call her China), yes, she's my awesome baby sister! I'm not saying she's awesome JUST because she's my sister but it doesnt hurt matters.

Thursday, September 6, 2012

Did ya every have one of those days where the word "frustrating" just doesn't cover it... for those of you who don't know yesterday afternoon while I was at a shoot my youngest daughter threw a teething fit in my husbands arm and knocked our only computer (a laptop) to the ground -- shattering the screen!

Friday, August 31, 2012

Panty Pal (heart)

Mine arrived DEFECTIVE!

What's even worse is the wireless they mentioned didn't mean remote... which I was bummed about. Now I have to find a better one to execute my plan.

On the upside my silicone bunny got new batteries, just when hers were about to die! So one good thing came out of the defective panty pal!

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Thursday, August 30, 2012

EdenFantasys Blog: Veined Double Bender

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I was really looking forward to this dildo when I ordered it. Unfortunately when I ripped open this EdenFantasys box I was slightly annoyed by this toy before I even saw it. It reeked up the box with its rubbery smell. The smell that coated the box was NOTHING compared to when I took this double header out of his plastic incasing. I'm fairly certain those in the next county could smell this thing. I immediately washed it. It did nothing to curb the scent. I've had the dildo for a few weeks now and its been washed half a dozen times but still reeks.

Wednesday, August 29, 2012

New Apartment *fingers crossed*

I went and saw the CUTEST apartment today. It’s a 2 bedroom 1.5 bath, but one of the rooms could EASILY become a third bedroom and if I get it that’s what’s going to happen.


The kitchen is HUGE there’s TONS of storage (something NONE of my past apartments have had) plus a GARAGE with garage opener!


And best of all, IN MY BUDGET!


I’m practically dripping down my leg right now over this apartment I want it so much. I’ve got so many ideas on how to make it a home, because if we get this apartment we’re not going to leave for a VERY long time because its just going to be my little family. No roommates to contend with, that make us move or we want to move away from.


The only problem with the no roommates, is if we do get this place we’ll have almost NO furniture. But that can come in time. I’m so tired of not being able to be naked when I want, masturbate or cam when I want because of roommates. So keep your fingers crossed that we get into this little apartment.

Tuesday, August 28, 2012

Roles of man & woman

In a previous blog I mentioned a study that stated that woman were less happy now that their expectations for life were higher. That got me thinking about gender roles. I was raised in a very progressive family. (My grandmother wore a white pant suit to her wedding.) Yet I was still taught that it was the womans role to cook, clean and care for the children having an outside job and wanting to be equal to a man didn't mean that you did less in the home (you were still the woman after all!), just that there were now higher expectations. Yet, according to Kim Iverson women are trying to change gender roles and some men don't know what their place is now that the way they were taught things should be are being drastically changed. Thus I started to wonder how gender roles play a large part on the effects of society.

In the 1950s the woman was expected to cook and clean whereas the man was supposed to be the breadwinner. Neither party was supposed to ask for help from the other. Anything outside of these strict places was looked down upon for either gender. If a man had to stay home with the children while the wife went to work, this would be seen as a negative circumstance. However, today, this is more accepted. This isn't to say that there still isn't a stereotypical "housewife", but it is nowhere near as common as it used to be. Actually quite the reverse! There is a series of stay-at-home dads and house-husbands cropping up everywhere.


Monday, August 27, 2012


Exhibitionism for the Shy

Exhibitionism refers to a desire or compulsion to expose parts of one's body – specifically the genitals or buttocks of a man or woman, or the breasts of a woman – in a public or semi-public circumstance, in crowds or groups of friends or acquaintances, or to strangers.

Saturday, August 18, 2012

Things Men Look For In Women

Are you finding it more difficult than you think it should be to find a great man and go from him just feeling “casual” about dating you to WANTING and NEEDING YOU on both a physical and emotional level?
If so, then I’m going to show you 4 “must-have” things that are needed to win the right man’s heart.

Disclaimer: Real Men are mature and grounded on a physical, mental, emotional, and spiritual level.        Boys will become uncomfortable when he gets too close to his own emotions, or too close to a woman who truly sees him inside and out, for better and worse.      

Wednesday, August 15, 2012

I Just Dont Know

I dont know what it is about extreme heats but GOD do they make me horny! I'm not even kidding, I'm roasting in my skin and really wish i didnt have roommates right now or I'd be naked eating ice cream on the couch watching Star Trek.

Friday, August 10, 2012

Tips For Tastey Cum

Your semen taste is reflected without delay in what you eat and is affecting the flavor of your sperm. Semen and sperm should be seen like your body’s secretions such as sweat, spit, and pee. What you put into your body is thus likely to impact on the flavor of your sperm and semen. Enhance your sperm taste and you really enhance your overall health as a rule too.

Thursday, August 9, 2012

EdenFantasys: Enchantress Playful Ties

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This EdenFantasys piece is the perfect thing if you're like me and aren't into hardcore bondage. The Enchantress Playful Ties set is slightly flimsy but it is designed for light bondage right down to the point where the ties don't leave marks (a huge plus in my book!). A photographer friend of mine that I shot these ties with, Kevin, said it best "Its made for people who WANT to be tied up".

Saturday, August 4, 2012

Anal Beads

"Please explain the point in anal beeds. I know how to use em but I dont see the point"

Anal beads are a sex toy consisting of multiple spheres or balls attached together in series which are continuously inserted through the anus into the rectum and then removed with varying speeds depending on the effect desired (most typically at orgasm to enhance climax). Those who use anal beads enjoy the pleasurable feeling they receive as the ball passes through the narrow sphincter of the anus.

Wednesday, August 1, 2012


Visit me at ELM to....

So, if you follow me on Facebook or Twitter you know that yesterday I won a heeldo! I'm very excited about this and have been looking at toys all night that I want to try with it.

Monday, July 30, 2012


July is almost over - can you believe it!? I most certainly can't. I've had my nose to the grind stone constantly this summer and only made it to the beach a few times ... and it wasnt even anything fun! Just business... which is very fun, but I would have liked time to relax. Oh well, its done its over with!

Thursday, July 26, 2012

Not The Girl My High School Would Remember

Yes, I walked -- but I rarely talked. I'm sure the popular crowd found me anything but complete!

Monday, July 23, 2012

Webcam Modeling

Finding employment as a webcam model can feel like an overwhelming task. Since there are numerous companies to choose from, finding the one that fits your lifestyle best is very important. Webcam models set their own hours and usually decide how often they will work. The models interact with their customers through a website that allows them to chat and engage in private shows. Webcam models can also perform their job knowing that they are in a safe and anonymous environment. The following steps will guide you in how to become a webcam model

Sunday, July 22, 2012


I've enjoyed working out again. A lot. I love when my body starts to burn. It makes me happy and smile. It improves my mental outlook and I just genuinely feel better about myself.
Last night, though, I decided to give my tummy a break and work my arms.

Friday, July 20, 2012


Over the years I've had many people look at me weird when I tell them "I shoot fetish". I might as well have said "I have sex with small children". Then I explain that a good portion of the fetish I do, is clothed. Their brows turn down and look at me like I've said "Look at me I can fly!"
Yes, there are many fetishes and some of them have nothing to do with sex and some of them have nothing to do with nudity!

Thursday, July 19, 2012

EdenFantasys Blog: Vibra Phone

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When I ordered the Vibra Phone from EdenFantasys I was very excited. The product description started "Put away your favorite cell phone and enjoy a special tool for discrete stimulation" and that had stirred a great deal of ideas for all sorts of new places to masturbate. However upon removing it from the packaging my excitment began to dwindle even before I put batteries into it. Once batteries had been installed, I'm sad to say that no excitment returned.

Tuesday, July 17, 2012


So, since my suspension from MyGirlFund I’ve been searching for similar sites to help make up the difference. One of the sites I found… well, to be 100% re-found was which claims to be a site of amateur porn.

Monday, July 16, 2012


Pornography is not an easy business. It requires a good eye for new trends in fetishes and desires, and a willingness to stand up against the hypocritical anger of your customer base or more correctly your NON-customer base (you know the people that think that pornography is not an expression of sexuality).

Sunday, July 15, 2012


Most people don't know that I hate wearing make up. Like most women I enjoy it and it gives a sense of confidence I don't have without it.

Saturday, July 14, 2012

Prejudice Against Fat People?

Anderson Cooper’s coming out was important for the shaping of the discourse around sexual orientation. Public figures’ attitudes around same-sex couples (including President Obama’s) have real psychological power to change the public’s own attitudes. A turn in attitudes in this domain is evident even in Robert Spitzer's apology for his support of a gay "cure," as well as a column by Craig Gross, who now mourns his church’s resistance to accept that both gay people and fat people can have a place in heaven.

Tuesday, July 10, 2012

Masturbation Benefits For Men

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In one national study, 95 percent of men and 89 percent of women said they had masturbated! Masturbation is a fundamental aspect of men's health, right up there with brushing your teeth and the more you know about what satisfies you solo, the more pleasure you get from sex.

Saturday, July 7, 2012

Better Sex For Couples

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Get Closer Through Foreplay

Foreplay is an essential part of physical communication and intimacy, and can strengthen feelings of love, appreciation, and trust between couples. More dynamic and extended foreplay leads to increased arousal and enhanced pleasure during sex. Sex toys allow couples a variety of ways to get more from their foreplay, whether it's experimenting with new sensations, or enhancing a couple's favorite sexual activities. Couples that use sex toys regularly often report better communication and healthier long-term relationships.
More variety in foreplay

Friday, July 6, 2012

Glass & Pussies Dont Mix?

So I was on one of the girl forums for one of the sites I use and one of the girls I absolutely hate was bitching about a custom she got requesting she use a wine bottle to masturbate. I tried to explain to her that its a fairly common request and she shouldnt have anything to worry about.

Then she proved why I dislike her so much.

Thursday, July 5, 2012

Too Hot!

Can someone turn off the heat? Its a little ridiculous! Dont believe me? Two of my dildos MELTED yesterday! I keep them in a semi-temperature controled box in the back of my closet (the coolest place in my house) and they still melted. I'm either going to have to figure out how to meld them back into the proper shape or just throw them out and get new ones.

Wednesday, July 4, 2012

Rules of E-Flirting

I swear I'm going to start a Tumblr page that just includes all of the dick pictures that are randomly sent to me!

Common guys?! REALLY!

Tuesday, July 3, 2012

Three Reasons Women Should Use Sex Toys

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1. Achieve Orgasm Faster and Easier with Vibrators
A study done in 2009 found that vibrators were the hottest selling sex toy. Do you know why? Vibrators do something that no human can. No, not just vibrate, there's more to it than that! They move faster, more consistently, and for longer periods of time than any fingers ever could. The average woman is able to reach orgasm quicker and easier with the high-frequency vibrations that most vibrators put off. Vibrators are versatile instruments, and can be used anywhere on the body to relax muscles, relieve strain, as well as provide precise stimulation for pleasure.
Vibrators may be the last consumer product group to come with absolutely no instructions or manuals from the manufacturers. At first blush you may think your vibrator doesn’t need a manual, but there are hundreds of different things to do with a vibrator, and if you’ve never used one a few pointers may be appreciated, so he's a couple of my thoughts.

Sunday, July 1, 2012


"What's going through his mind when he's jerking it?"

I can't say I begin to even know, but I've been told that I'm not "really" a girl. (I say what I mean, and I want you to do the same) So when I stumbled upon this topic I figured it was a perfect topic for me to pull my junk out and discuss.

Saturday, June 30, 2012

Good People

Over my life I have met many people. Some good and some horrid. Lately I have had the pleasure of meeting a family that has just enough itself but still gives to less fortunate families and individuals whenever they can.

Friday, June 29, 2012

Thursday, June 28, 2012

EdenFantasys: How To Give A Mind Blowing Blowjob

Sex toys - EdenFantasys adult toys store I figured for this months EdenFantasys review I figured we'd cover a book. I know you're probably going WHAT THE HELL THIS ISNT A BOOK CLUB! However, I think you'll like the book I suggested! "How to Give a MindBlowing Blowjob".

Oh yea, you're eating your words now arent ya?

The book was smaller than I thought it was going to be which is nice, could fit well into a purse to read on the go. (Very fun to read on the bus, guys double take and smile... they take it as an open invitation to advance. "Can I help you practice?")

I never considered myself even remotely good at giving head so I thought the book would be helpful and it was. Except for a minor mishap during my first practice session where I sliced the guys dick with my back teeth. (Oops!) My mouth is just too small for oral... or at least porno oral (deep throating, fast in & out ect).

I rather enjoyed the book however and it spurred a couple good ideas for clips! (See)

Wednesday, June 27, 2012

More Ramblings From A Crazy Person

Woke up this morning like 5 a.m feeling like complete garbage. Sweating and tossing up what ever is was I ate last night. Mustve caught a stomach virus of some sort. Thought it went away cuz I felt alright after awhile.

Sunday, June 24, 2012

Blogging about Nothing

I actually spent a lot of time today not on the internet. I feel like I should get a gold star or something, lol. I went outside! I had the sun shine on my skin!

Saturday, June 23, 2012


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I was doing so well! Blogging at least once a week, sometimes twice and now.... blah!
That's right I said it.


So, I was trying to find a topic to write about and decided to flip through EdenFantasys figuring something there would spark my interest. I'd lost my spark for blogging, even writing reviews!

Saturday, June 16, 2012

Magic The Gathering

I started playing this game when I was really young (probably 5 or 6) because all my older cousins were in it and I wanted to be just like them!

Friday, June 15, 2012

Being Professional with the UNprofessional

No matter how professional you are-- No matter how diligent you are -- we all end up with situations that require delicate handling.

Keeping a good and professional attitude is incredibly important in creating opportunities, increasing income, and retaining a healthy local market.

Thursday, June 14, 2012

Why do models want to be paid?

Oh dear, hell I'm going to say it again, oh dear! My brain is literally bleeding over the fact that some (new) photographers have to ask this question.

Wednesday, June 13, 2012

You're so cute, I could eat you up!

People eating each other all over the place. I don't know if this is a combination of crazy drug use and the hype the media has been giving to possible happenings like the zombie apocalypse.

Tuesday, June 12, 2012


So, I just got up..about to do my daily routine of cleaning my house top to bottom. Woo! My friend borrowed my car so it looks like I'm going to be walking to the store today in this ridiculous heat. I really need to get out, do something fun. I feel like I'm turning into Stepford wife with all this constant cleaning & cooking, but isn't that what men love anyways? ...wait.... no, thats blowjobs ... Damn it!

Monday, June 11, 2012

BDSM Is ....

Anyone can inflict pain. BDSM is not about pain. BDSM is about power. It is about trust. It is about faith - having faith in someone else. It is about believing - believing in yourself. - Achilles

Sunday, June 10, 2012

Sex After College

Once you graduate it's harder to find people. You dont meet someone new every other hour, you have to go out searching bars, clubs, dating sites... or worse yet social networking!

Saturday, June 9, 2012

Why I hate the Hitachi Magic

The classic Hitachi Magic Wand is the old reliable, go-to vibrator for many women, for so many reasons. However, I am not one of them!

Friday, June 8, 2012

Wartenberg Wheel

If you've been following me on Facebook/Twitter than you know on the first I ordered a wartenberg wheel to get the free rainbow bliss that EdenFantasys was offering. Well, I got some messages from people going "What the fuck?" So I figured I'd do a little blog about what this wheel is and why I'm so excited.

Thursday, June 7, 2012

EdenFantasys: Silicone Finger Bunny

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Oh yea, its time for another I GOT IT FREE FROM EDENFANTASYS! This time its the Silicone Finger Bunny. I made a special purchase to get this toy for free because it had such good ratings on the site I just couldn't let it slip away!

This is another clitoral stimulator/vibrator but with its ten dynamic rhythms it is definately going to keep you well entertained! ~_^

Wednesday, June 6, 2012

Money is like Oxygen- Without it, its hard to survive

National student loan debt has surpassed one trillion dollars, topping credit card debt for the first time (ever!) and new calls for a student debt bailout.  Marriage and birthrates are falling, and the average age people tie the knot is inching ever upward. Looks like to me like the thing that is ruining families has nothing to do with our rights to reproduce, adopt or marry... it comes right back to MONEY.

Tuesday, June 5, 2012


Help me someone, please.

I've lost my mind

and don't know where to find it.

Help me find my way

through my thoughts,

and memories...

so I don't drift away.

Help me someone, please

reach your hand out to hold me...

help... before I've drifted out... 

Monday, June 4, 2012

Types in Men

At dinner one night recently, my girlfriends and I were talking and we got on the subject of tastes in men. Each one of them had one or two "types", which honestly kinda surprised me. I kinda felt like it's pretty closed minded to only find a couple types of men attractive. I, of course, had to put in my 2 cents, letting them know that I definately can't narrow down my "types" to one or two!

Rules of a Traveling Model (Being Hosted)

Being a traveling model is a very difficult job but if you have the demand and know how to market yourself it can be very fun and very profitable. Thus, it makes it worth it! Yet, there's certain things that you need to remember if you want to stay with photographers or other models instead of shelling out money for hotels or just sleeping in your car.

Sunday, June 3, 2012

5 hot facts about Women and Sex

I love these little facts, they definately describe my likes, not so much my orgasms but, you cant hit the nail on the head all the time ^_~

Saturday, June 2, 2012

Where to find sex toys?

Ok, so I'm one of those people that frequents craigslist looking for awesome things for cheap or maybe just a cheap laugh. Well, today I was reading through them and there was a guy asking for the BEST place to get sex toys and it inspired me.

Friday, June 1, 2012

Thursday, May 31, 2012

Friends Don't Let Friends

Friends dont let friends stay in bad relationships! Or do they? I'm the type of person that feels like it's best to be completely honest when asked an opinion on something.
What to wear?
What's healthier to eat?
Should we go out tonight or stay in?

Wednesday, May 30, 2012

Life Is Funny

Life sure does have its way of keeping balance. When things begin to look too good to be true. It usually is, but only if your one of those "the glass is half empty" type of people. Me on the other hand I'm a "glass is half full" type of girl and try to look at the positive despite any negativity thrown my way.

Tuesday, May 22, 2012

Body Image

There are many myths and misconceptions about body image. These common misunderstandings sabotage body acceptance and can lead to a disordered self image. I hate the stero types, and I know what you're thinking... "youre tooth pick skinny, you cant relate to me!"
Really? What's the difference between "tooth pick skinny" and "over sized whale"... they both hurt, they both can damage ones self esteem and they both couldnt be further from the truth.
What you look like doesnt matter.
What you believe does!
But while we're here, I want to clear up some myths and hopefully raise your self esteem.

Friday, May 18, 2012

(Myth) Real women have curves

Be honest now, you've judged someone before based on their weight. You made a whale joke or talked about drowning that mother of two who isn't even a whole hundred pounds. It's sad and not OK, but it's almost an automatic response: See a woman, judge her body. It's a habit deeply ingrained in us. I've done it and I've had it done to me!

Thursday, May 17, 2012

EdenFantasys Blog: Multi-speed Basic Vibrating Bullet

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I received the Multi-speed Basic Vibrating Bullet as a free gift and over all I have to say that I'm glad that I didn't pay for it. While it is a great toy that can take you from zero to squirt in a matter of seconds I also found that if this sex toy didn't get me there in the first few seconds (no longer than a minute) then it wasn't going to do it. Which was sort of frustrating!

Sunday, May 13, 2012

Mothers Day

♥ To every woman who’s gotten zero sleep and still managed to get everything done the next day.

To every woman who’s kissed a scrape, scratch, or bruise.

To every woman who’s sacrificed something she needed for what she knew her child wanted.

To every woman who has hugged away sadness and fear.

To every woman who’s supported dreams and hopes.

To every woman who made the end of the world all better by wiping away their child’s tears and holding them close.

To every MOTHER Happy Mother’s Day! ♥

*I didnt write that.. but... Happy Mothers day

Saturday, May 12, 2012


What a lazy day! I did NOTHING except edit and upload clips. I had such a longer list of things I wanted to get done but my energy level just didnt allow it. Yea, I know there was a lot more that I should have done.

Thursday, May 3, 2012

Slave Application

Committing to a lifetime or even a single session of slavery is a serious undertaking for anyone to consider. Nothing is to be rushed. Nothing is to be taken for granted. All the rules and conditions to be built up over time do not fundamentally matter as they are a means to an end: a sustainable, ever-maturing and evolving, mutually satisfying, effective and loving Master-slave partnership. Be honest, open and truthful, with yourself and your Master. Commitment, fulfillment, happiness and above all trust and clear communication are crucial, so think carefully about what you are asked here.

Filling in this form will take time. A good Master needs a thorough understanding of any slave who is placed under her control, and honesty and trust are established through clear communication, as well as good actions and training. The mental component to slavery is even more important than the physical dimensions, and this application will help a slave to begin to explore the mental side of slavery, or at the least, enable a slave to consider his reaction or attitudes to various aspects of slavery.

Good Masters need good slaves, and good slaves who submit more willingly and completely to a Master are desirable, and worthy of training. If your application is successful, I will be in touch to arrange an inspection/ interview session and to discuss your future slave development.
Good luck.

Wednesday, May 2, 2012

Escape from Drama

First of all, can you believe we're almost half way through the year? I was completely floored when I had to date a check today MAY! My Baby Dahl is 5 months old as of yesterday and I'm sorry to say I'm in much of a similar place now as I was this time last year when I was pregnant with her but so much has happened to get me to this... same place two thousand miles away.

Tuesday, May 1, 2012

I WANT.....

These are the things that i want. 

Iwant to stand barefoot in the middle of a clear road in the rain, with water puddling on tree branches above me, and not care that my dress is sheer and wet and clings to my skin.

Friday, April 27, 2012

Friday? Again?

I wanted to get SO much more done today than I actually did. I wanted to wake up early but it just felt so good to be in bed that I couldn't do it.

Thursday, April 26, 2012

EdenFantasys: Coquette Babydoll & G-String

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This babydoll made by coquette is my first piece of lingerie I have bought from EdenFantasys, and I had A LOT of worries in doing it. I was afraid that the thong wouldn't fit right or that the underwire wouldn't fit or be uncomfortable. With my petite frame the perfect piece of lingerie is difficult to find but this piece fits like a charm.

When I first took it out of the package I started to fear that my original concerns might be correct. I'd ordered the smallest size and was fearful that it might still be too big, especially in the bust.

Saturday, April 21, 2012

Moving (Again)

Now I’m sure those of you who follow me are reading the title of this blog and thinking “Again?!” Yup! Again and again and again… Ok, hopefully not really!

With any luck (and a lot of pixie dust) this will be my last move for quite some time.

So, like always when I move I decided to write a blog depicting what I’ve learned this moving trip and the first one I’m going to share is something that I learn EVERY time I move.

Friday, April 13, 2012


Not that it REALLY means anything to me! But I'm sure for those of you who work a standard 9 to 5 it means ALOT. The good thing about Fridays is that means that I'll be able to chat with all my cam buddies.
Have you come and played with me on cam yet?

Thursday, April 12, 2012

Rick Santorum Backs Out!

I'm SO GLAD he backed down from candidacy. His politics, his morality requirements that create a list longer than his flimsy closet queer arm was not something that this country needed. A Santorum america isnt AMERICA. Thats my opinion.

Saturday, April 7, 2012

Porn Models

People always wonder what the deal is with porn girls and if they had damaged pasts. "How'd you get lost in porn?" Some porn stars had damaged pasts.

 I'm not one of them!

Thursday, April 5, 2012

EdenFantasys Blog: Free Cock Ring

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In this review I will be talking about my "free gift" it was "EdenFantasys Vibrating Ring -- Cock Ring". The ring normally retails for $5.99 and when I saw it was being offered for free I thought "Why not?"

Saturday, March 31, 2012

Mega Million Lottery

I went the Am Pm today to get a cigarettes and the line was out the door and down the street with people buying Mega Millions tickets. 

Behind the counter was a little mexican guy who didn't speak English, and obviuosly wasn't trained how to operate the Lottery machine.  So I decided to research this Mega Millions thing on my Touch to see if it made any sense.

Friday, March 30, 2012

Daily Motion

Finally! I have found a site that will allow me to post my vlogs! I'm quite excited.
Check out my start at

Saturday, March 24, 2012

YouTube Hates Me

YouTube dominates the world of online video sharing and lets face it, much like Facebook Youtube is a PRUDE.
As you guy know over the last 3 years I have had 3 different youtube channels none of which lasted a month because they're quickly flagged because I'm in porn.
So I started searching out another place to post my "coming attractions" and my vlogs.

Friday, March 16, 2012

Porn Bad?

Have you heard all the noise about banning porn?! Porns bad? Porns hurting our society?
My long standing joke is that I do porn to make the world a better place through smut and dirty talk but there have been several studies that state that my joke has a very serious edge! They are saying that there is a clear line between the acceptance of internet porn & fetishist sites doing society some good!

Thursday, March 15, 2012

A Pairing?

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If you've been following my twitter or facebook you may have seen that I am working on getting some new toys (from EdenFantasys) and making some new longer, kinkier clips with the vibrators, sex toys and lingerie that EdenFantasys offers. I will be explore my comfort zone, and pushing my limits.

I originally got into fetish to understand them a bit more. Fetish was a big word at the time, everyone was using it to describe damn near everything that they enjoyed, in the bedroom as well as out. I've always been the type of person that wanted to pick apart peoples brains. I didn't much care for WHAT people thought, more along the line of WHY they thought, believed or enjoyed something. Sexual desires were always a point of interest for me, because with the raising I had sex wasn't something that was talked about, only eluded to in my mothers nightly activities.

Wednesday, March 14, 2012

Stupid Girls

This world is full of stupid girls. I don't get it why pretend you're something you're obviously not just to be adored. How does that feel right? How does that feel like they're adoring you, when you don't even let them see the real you? When you've been faking who you are for so long you don't even know who you are? Is that the only way they know how to get what they need? What they want?

Sunday, March 11, 2012

Hard Work

"So no one told you life was gonna be this way "

My definition of hard work is that which challenges you.
And why is challenge important? Why not just do what’s easiest?
Most people will do what’s easiest and avoid hard work — and that’s precisely why you should do the opposite. The superficial opportunities of life will be attacked by hordes of people seeking what’s easy. The much tougher challenges will usually see a lot less competition and a lot more opportunity.

Saturday, March 10, 2012

Self-Entitled People

Something I need to get off of my chest. I have been noticing lately, that I seem to be surrounded by self-entitled people. did I miss the day that everyone decided that just because they are on the face of the earth they are guaranteed complete happiness, fulfillment, and contentment? Where have I been?

Friday, March 9, 2012

Learning to Webcam

So lately I've been trying to get back into my camming and trying to figure out the best way to do it. I'm a gamer as most of you know so when it comes to chat rooms the ones I'm used to as the ones where its mostly textual based and so actually talking to the text versus typing back is slightly difficult for me, but I started wondering what you do when there is no one in the room, or only guests/basic members that dont really say anything and just sit there.

Saturday, February 25, 2012

Women need men?

We live in an age in which women have earned complete independence. One would think that neither sex really needs the other except for those sexual urges, but with the new line of dildos, vibrators and a wide selection of porn, do women need men at all? I want to say yes, but being a girl of mostly facts and figures I had to do some research and I found Dr. Nick Neave, an evolutionary psychologist from Northumbria University, who not only states that women not only need men, but are fundamentally programmed to depend on them.

Thursday, February 23, 2012

Mothers & Careers

What's your thoughts now that you've read this advertisement? I was offended since I am and have been a career women and mother for the past 2 years. I've done the "professional" mom, the "normal" job and I did the "be my own boss" job.

Saturday, February 11, 2012

Not a Whore

So one of the girls I've worked with in the past made a comment that I "[...] seem to have a very negative attitude towards the sex industry and sex workers for being one yourself..."

Saturday, January 28, 2012

My View of Agencys

"Some models would rather promote themselves instead of listing through an agency. Nothing wrong with this but it does require more work on your part. If your are signed with a model agency, they promote the business, they talk to the clients on your behalf, they set up the shooting dates, they take the heat if you don't make it to the session, etc.
But, there are many models who are "loners" in the pool of modeling and want complete control over who they work with and why."

Wednesday, January 25, 2012

Parody of a Heavily Covered Song: Knocking on Heavens Door

Mr President, can you take this piece of paper?
That college said its my degree but I cant use it any more
Its getting dark... too dark to see
Feels like I'm knocking on heavens door

Economy burnt my dreams to the ground
I don't dream them any more
There's a cold rain coming down
Feels like I'm knocking on heavens door

Tuesday, January 10, 2012

I hate hospitals

Over the last few weeks I've had to deal with hospitals, bureaucrats, and the government far more than I'd like and I've learned that some things about me haven't changed since I was a child.