Friday, December 8, 2017

Bad Blood Washed Away

I spent today cleaning my office. Making room for new equipment, new storage and cleaning out my closet. I found several things that reminded me where I'd been. Where I'd climbed out of... It made me remember how strong I am. That this winter is going to be hard but I've suffered worse.

Saturday, November 18, 2017

Rock & A Hard Place

I spent the day sick in bed which unfortunately left me a great deal of time to think. I ended up returning to the previous night and how important the nightly goal was but also pondering how important it was for me to try and make extra to hopefully help save my sister's house.

Saturday, August 5, 2017


If you haven't heard about Patreon yet, it is my premiere VIP site where you can subscribe for $1 and get access to all of my modeling photos I can't show on social media but also as your pledge tiers go up you "unlock" other perks and rewards. I share what my artistic, as well as pornographic goals, are there and where I'm hoping to "advance". It also gives me a chance to get your feedback, what you love, what you want to see and where YOU want me to advance. The idea behind this site is truly wonderful.

Thursday, March 23, 2017


Image result for cracked plate meaning, sorry

The plate is broken, that crack will always be there. Do you throw away the plate or do you try to fix it?  The lesson to learn here is that "Sorry" is the process of fixing the plate. Did you use glue? Did you use gold?
                       "What do you mean what did I use? What does it matter? It's fixed isn't it?"
Very true... but how much was your "sorry" worth? Will the plate break again from the basic use or will it hold forever?
That's today's lesson.

Thursday, February 2, 2017

Feeling Melancholy

I can't see anything but the bills I'm paying, the time I'm losing... Dreamless nights and nightmarish days. There's a voice inside my head that's gone quiet. Every step I'm taking, every move I'm making feels lost with no direction. Futile attempt to make something happen that never comes to be.

Saturday, January 21, 2017

Coping: I Forgive You

Life is hard when you love someone that you can't contact because of their own toxicity level. Thankfully, I learned how to cope with this many years ago. I'm a child of the 90's so I had a myspace and LiveJournal. So, I will pour my hurt, and pain here and hope that doing so will help me cope.