Access To Me

 Allow me to remind anyone and everyone who needs to hear this.

No one is entitled to access to me or anyone, no exceptions. 

Some people believe that people are entitled to access to us by default unless they do some egregious slight that then justifies them being taken out of our lives. It's not the case.

Access to YOU is granted by YOU and ONLY YOU. You get to decide how someone earns it.

Access to me, for instance, is granted on some pretty basic things but the main ones (especially recently) have been...

• Is this going to be a positive experience?
• Is being in this setting going to require "after-care" (physically or emotionally)?
• Are you safe? Do you care about consent? Do I feel my boundaries will be respected?

Floyd Baker

  In Western New York, most people have heard the name. Ten years ago when I first moved to WNY it was one of the first names I heard in the modeling community. Models & Photographers alike told me that he was a man that was not to be trusted. He would serve underage girls liquor to get them to do nude shoots when they would not willingly do it sober. That he really wasn't the type of guy to hear "No" and let it not only be a full sentence but let it actually mean "no". 

The Joker... Can we be serious?

Every fuck boy that can't make it in society and has problems with law enforcement enjoys calling himself "The Joker". It's become almost a sickening joke when someone honestly expects me to refer to them as such. Don't get it twisted, the almost identical situation occurs when a girl wants to be a Harley Quinn. Most people don't understand the derangements that exist in these characters or the motivations for them. 

Joker has many backstories depending on how far back and which universe we are going through but let's discuss what Jack Napier, Joseph Kerr, Johnny Jape, W.C. Whiteface, Clavier Ankh, Mr. Genesius, Red Hood, Dr. J. Reko, Oberon Sexton, Jack White, Melvin White, & Eric Border have in common. They're all simple "dogs chasing cars" and not a single one of them would know what to do if they actually caught one. By this, I mean that all of their individual actions are reactionary. None of it is a plan. After all, does Joker look like a man with a plan?

Explaining My Chest Tattoo

I get a lot of questions asking about the tattoo on my chest a lot. 

A number of stories use the ouroboros. The story I got my tattoo from is a manga that was later adapted into two different animes called Full Metal Alchemist. With the placement, I selected mine is from the character "Lust".

Mostly on TikTok, I get a lot of questions about this piece because it's obviously "old" and people are super curious about what it means. I have not fully come out on TikTok with the full history of the symbol because mine is actually a mixture of TWO symbols. This ouroboros on my chest isn't JUST an ouroboros, it also has a seal of Solomon in the center. Yes, a seal of Solomon. A hexagram. How is it different from a star of David? It's not really. They're both hexagrams but let's talk about the ouroboros first and then we'll come back to the seal of Solomon. 

So what if I'm fucking crazy?

You're a real rare individual?
You're into the physical and the metaphysical?
You understand what I do and understand that I need alone time. How do I explain that is critical?
You want my time and it sounds so hypocritical? Especially when you're not willing to compensate me