My surgery was supposed to be two days ago and once again no one listens to the girl thats had multiple neck trauma, surgeries and over all medical experience.
Surgery got started on Wednesday but no one believed me when I said that I'm difficult to intubate so after 30 minutes of trying, scratching the living hell out of my throat they decided that doing the surgery at the surgical center was no longer safe and I had to be moved to one of the hospitals. On Wednesday I was slightly annoyed but the way that everyone was talking I figured a day or so and the surgery would be done. Nope. I have to wait another 4 weeks.
Disappointed was/is an understatement.
"How does the 13th of January sound"
Like a million days away but I have no other option so what can I do? 5 years what's one more month. One more month of brain splitting pain, and forcing myself to work because no matter how much im suffering bills still need to be paid. The only small consultation is that I get my NSAIDS and steroids back for the next 2 weeks.
The only problem is my "mild depression" has not been feeling very mild lately but I can't say anything cause FUN FACT thats how the surgery would get delayed more.
The only thing my mom ever really taught me was that when the depression gets bad buy something and if that doesnt work or you don't have money turn the sadness into anger.
God, does it not help.
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