If you're going to message someone asking them to collaborate...
1. Know what they produce (strictly porn? Strictly clothed? ASMR?) Have an idea of what you'd like their assistance with producing.
2. Be honest about why you want to work with them (say more than "you're hot" or "successful")
3. Create value in yourself. Why should they want to collaborate for you? What's their "carrot"?
4. If they turn you down, be polite. Thank them for their time.
A lot of images of me 6+ years ago are popping up in my memories across social media and my brain is like "god bitch, eat something" and a friend pointed out that if 6+ years ago me heard that it would ruin her day.
I've been thinking about that for 2 hours and though at the time I thought I liked my body I've come to realize I didn't. Especially at the size I am now.
That girl was barely 100lbs and the woman I am now is closing on 200lbs but the skin here is a lot tougher and the self love is stronger.
1:15pm - My mother has barely been able to eat/or drink for the last month. Hospice comes in daily. She can hear but can't speak.
11:35pm - My mom passes
I spent the next hour unable to sleep, struggling to thing ofa good memory of my mom that didn't involve shame, or neglect. That's what brings me to tears. My mother has been dead to me for a little over a decade.
For the next 6hours I drift in and out of sleep having weird dreams about a vehicle that looked and felt like a cheese bus except that it had four doors and a hatch like a SUV.
I turn off my alarm before it wake me up and proceed about my day. My brain still consumed with finding good memories with my mom.
